Loved that was filled

You were the only one I could ever love,
If I lashed out at you,
You'd stay by my side, bleeding.
If I'd cry, you'd wipe away my tears.
Our love never seemed to lose it's passionate heat.
I feel so 'tainted' and 'filthy',
Others don't want me, so why did you?
Others laughed at me, and tore me down,
Yet you lifted me up from my pit of sorrow,
And held me close.
So close to my ear you'd whisper 'I Love you'.
I wish we were still as in-love adn 'innocent' as we were then,
Our thunderstorm kisses, and love filled words.
My darling, my love.
He is forever lost in the storm of my rage and pain,
If only if he knew what happened, and what he did.
I don't know what he'd say,
Yet he still has the other part of my heart.
Forever more, and always.