You were mine.

Bloodless lips fall upon cold skin,
as the silent rain falls around.
My rose withing beside his heartless grave.
I don't know how I get along without you in my life,
I don't know why this ever happened.
I wish with all my heart I could take back my painful and heartless words.
Please forgive me.
Blackened lies,
and forgiving truths blind my eyes.
Please let me tell you "I love you" one last time.
Please give me another chance.
I can't live without us at least being friends.
I don't understand why I hate you so much,
but my love is just as great.
It hurts me everyday,
to see you with another.
I can't even get another lover,
another friend.
I know that I could cry onto your shoulder,
and you'd pull me closer.
Placing a kiss on my forehead you'd tell me "I love you more than the sun."
We would watch others play football, but you'd never leave my side.
You sit there, as if a loyal dog, watching, waiting.
I can still remember the day you told me you loved me,
our first kiss,
and the first inside joke we ever had.
One year, six months you said,
well, it's been One year, three months, and four days.
But it doesn't mean I'm counting.
Everyday when I wake up, it's 'just another day',
but when you were there,
I had a a reason for waking up in the morning,
a reason to smile.
a reason to live.
I have cried all my tears.
I have killed all my fears.
I will not give into the pain,
but it's all too hard.
Every time I see a couple walk by,
I stop and think,
"Why can't that be me?"
I refused to give in,
but now,
I give up.
Just please, give my back my heart.
Let me live again,
I'm tired, and worn.
I hate having to cry,
I hate having to wait.
Just let me be open to life again.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love yo.
I love y
I love
I lov
I lo
I l
I
...

Shreds of Shadows

Her heartbeat quickens,
as his breath tingles against her skin.
Traces of goosebumps raise against the aroused flesh.
She doesn't know how...
Such a pleasant dream it was.
His blonde hair through her fingers,
entwined and twisted.
And his crystal blue eyes, captured hers..
His smiles are my sunshine,
and his frowns; my rain.
I don't know if he ever notices me anymore,
but I don't really expect him too.
I told him it was over, and I don't know why.
Every time we see each other,
it is as if we are the dogs and life is the fight.
We snap and bear our teeth at each other,
and eventually, our words clash.
From then on, I have been a shadow,
a shred of cloud.
A blurry figure in the mist,
the drunken straggler in the blackened alleyway,
who is afraid of the light.
I only wish,
I was able to say "I love you" once again.
and have him in my arms,
telling me it's all okay,
and that even though I am broken,
he will glue me back together.
He was my everything, my all.
The one who would wake me up in the morning,
and puts me to bed in my dreams.
Thunderstorm kisses is the way to describe ours.
You always took care of me,
even if you didn't stand up for me,
I knew you loved me.
You understood my emotions and words,
even if they didn't make sense to others.
I know I could call you late at night,
just to cry.
I know I could hide my head on your shoulder,
and you wouldn't push me away.
Our passionate fingers glued together,
as you stroked my face and carried away my heart.
I knew that you'd be my protector,
my escape.
No matter how much I try,
I can't break away.
I can't regain back my heart.
I fight and try to tear it out of your grasp,
but you hold it tight,
making it watch while you go off with others.
I feel as if you enjoy my tears.
And with that,
there he left her,
on the hard, permeated pavement.